11 June 2010

"I would get with you but you got a...

BABY!!!" WTF? Did you really just tell me that? Ok I am so sick of hearing that shit from a man, oh no I should say boy. What makes you even live by some shit like that? Where have you been? Who have you been with? Damn have you been put on child support by a woman you don't even have a biological child with? Do you feel as though I could possibly get back with my child's father? Blind to the fact as I could do so with ANY man. Do you think I will depend on you to pay for my child's expenses? You think I am going to ask you to be his "new daddy"? Is this some shit your mother has put into your head? Will you be judged by your home boys if you start a relationship with me?

Ok damn first off the shit is beyond rude, & your pre judging me which is ass backwards & allow me to mention WACK! Yes I have child but what exactly is the problem? I am fully aware of who you are & what you your role would be, I would never expect you handle a situation you did not create. Second I already have the world on my shoulders... Reading a book to him before bedtime, playing a five minute game of hide-and-seek, having a sit-down dinner together and talk about our day, financial challenges, showing his father respect etc... Sometimes I may feel lost & alone, I cry feeling as though I am not parenting right. Everyday I wake up & make sure he slept peacefully through the night. I worry every minute of the day about his safety. That is hard just think about the sick folks in this world & I am constantly thinking praying of his safety. I can no longer put myself first, I am in charge of a whole different life now. I carried some one in my belly for 9 months, & in the end pushed him out of my coochie. Do you understand that? Of course you don't you have a penis. I make sure he is getting the proper knowledge he needs. There are so many aspects of the situation, and all you can think of is "because I have a kid". HOW FUCKING RUDE & inconsiderate of the reality of it.

It's cool though, I don't wanna be with someone as simple as your punk ass anyway. You have no clue about life, the beauty of it. Your scary because you don't make your own moves in life, explore NEW things, I would even respect you if you at least tried, or told me "look I have had some bad experiences with this kind of thing so if I seem a bit scared bare with me" or "I'm not a father so don't expect it". Dude I would appreciate that over some other bullshit.


After reading this I hope you look at that beautiful woman pushing that stroller different now. Another thing, how come because I have child I am not expected to make you wait for sex? You feel as though since I have a kid you don't have to wait for the sex? You know what that's a whole different issue. I won't even do it in this post lmao I will come back to that...

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