Bridges

At the age of 21 I am blessed to be alive.

I think I have a nice life, going after my dreams of acting, raising my healthy son, surrounded by a strong supportive family, knowing Jesus is one call away, working, driving, in total control of all of my 5 senses, living on my own, paying bills, reading, exploring & trying to maintain the bridges built with my friends and those that mean a little more then the average.

Which might I add can be a challenge knowing every single person I come in contact with might not be on the same page as me. People come in to other peoples lives for a reason some good & some bad. I try to detect the haters before they attack. I have lost good people from my life by death. We all know that it's a part of life, man it hurts to loose someone, especially unexpected.

So I want to keep the bridges between my friends & family built on steady waters. Some people do evil & wrong shit to me but I live to learn & forgive, I feel even though someone may hurt me once but I can not sweat the small things & hold on to the past, b/c people change & they may really need me one day. I know thats how I feel. If I can be the bigger person it does something to my pride & self-esteem.

I was riding today & passed a hotel that my friend was shot up in. My little sister said to me "Oh there is that hotel", I said "I know I miss him so much." Then she said to me "Why did you fall off with him?" I told her "Because he lied to me to much." Her response was "That is silly you could've forgiven him & still been just as cool as before."

That is when I realized life is too short for hatred. He did used to lie to me, but what if it was because he did not want to hurt me with the truth? Hell I will never know. It is a floating mystery that will never be solved. So I want to forgive & keep moving forward. I don't want to burn bridges with my folks, but can you do that? Is that possible to forgive & keep the same flow? I don't know but it's damn for sure worth a try so I will.

"Yes I was BURNED but I called it a lesson learned. Mistake over turned so I called it a lesson learned. My soul has returned so I called it a lesson learned."